NEW START/NEW LIFE/NEW ATTITUDE/NEW YEAR & NEW HEART

Dun scold me for those who are going to... I just want to start everything anew... Not going to mention anything that has to do with Miss Heartless but I am going to mention all my experiences with God, growth in Christ, spiritual race progress and of course, if unfortunately, problems erupt, I will of course record them here too... Hmmm... This blog is going to be special ya, because I am not going to give anyone other than my CG and people who are special to me... Thus, anyone who is reading this, it means you are special to me... But of course, this is my secret hide-out where I will reveal my feelings, thoughts and some personal experiences, so if it's offensive in any manner, I apologize first...

Alright, let me just start this whole brand new blog by speaking about my new year resolutions... Hmmm... I have 10 before yesterday and why before yesterday, I will explain later...

1) Outreach to at least 10 people and bringing at least 3 people to Christ
2) Bring my Backslided Sheeps back to Christ
3) Serve God in Worship Ministry with my Vocals
4) Widen my knowledge in God's words and teaching
5) Widen my vocal range
6) To foster my bonds with CG & DI
7) To soar and excel in God's way
8) To surrender all to God
9) To put God as the centre in my life
10) Share Christ with my Family

Hmmm... Interesting especially for the vocal range because I have a strong burning passion in Vocal and currently studying about projecting Vocals in the right manner with the right organs...

As for my very new resolutions among my new year resolutions, woa, sound complicated isn't it? Hmmm... It is to cultivate the character of a Cactus and grow up strong and healthy with Christ... With God, I believe and know nothing is impossible... Although at this point of time, alot of problems are surrounding me, but I gotta open up my eyes of heart and let God guide me through and light up my life... God is all I ever want to be with, all I ever trust wholeheartedly because I know He will never forsake me, never lie to me, never hurt me, never betray me and never take me for granted...

Perhaps is because I have faced rather a handful of betrayals from my friends and even people whom I once loved, they betrayed my trust until now, I can't trust them despite I know the fact that I shouldn't condemn people down with the past if I dun wish to be condemn... Despite I said that I dun want to mention Miss Heartless, I guess I must really say that she have jolly well condemn me greatly with my past mistakes... I have done my best in proving to everyone that I have changed, I dun care how those ignorants ones using another kind of expressions to look at me, but I care about how she sees me... Of course, ultimately, I really only bother how God look at me because He doesn't look at my ugly appearance but my heart...

Not judging, but some people have very beautiful appearance but their heart is really ugly and these people are truly the ones whom I have been dealing with... Somehow, I am always being deceived by their appearance but now, after being badly deceived by someone who used to be the one whom I used to believe in alot because she is the one who got me to Church, gave me the determination, encouragement and support to come and stay in Faith, she helped me through during my very painful initial period in Christ because I was struggling with Family Persecutions... She stood by my side to see me throught...

Alright, enough, dun wanna talk about her anymore...

Hmmm... For this whole coming 4 weeks, DI and CG will be outreaching intensively and I will be busy with my Academic plus rehearsals... It has been a very tiring period for me but looks like everything will still be going for quite some time before it will comes to an end... I have no idea how much longer can I push myself through... I made a promise to Leanne that I will run and grow strong in Christ like a Cactus, I will definitely keep to this promise... Especially since, I have made her my role model, I want to learn and I definitely have alot to learn from her... She is definitely a leader whom I will forever look upon to...

As for me, no matter how busy I am with my Academic Commitments or Rehearsals, I will not forget to serve God and I will serve Him wherever I go by spreading His gospel to people around me and of course to be a Witness whom will glorify His name... I want to influence people around me and bring them to Faith... Though this race with Christ may be tough, obstacles, trials of faith is definitely going to pop out here and there, I won't allow myself to fall or stumble... And even when I fall, I will pick myself up with the deep faith I have for God and get braver and stronger after each fall... After each fall, I will definitely learn something precious and seen clearly the people around me... Especially their true colors...

After going through so much, I have truly seen through the people around me... I know who are the ones who truly care for me, the ones who will always be there to support and encourage me and of course, who are the ones who appears to be caring and sweet but when I fall, they will just turn their back against me... But when they have problems, they will come seeking for my help... I will continue to help them as much as I can, because serving people is definitely a enjoying activity and I hope that they will see how God have changes me and of course works in me...