It's a tough decision, definitely, but I wun change my mind...

Not long ago, I have finally decided on something which I believe have really troubled me for a very long tym. And I know that this decision has affect the people around me somehow too, I have done my best but all these, I know that I am right because I have no reason to submit myself to please people but to please God.

I have decided to leave the current circle which I am serving in, reason being, I realized I am not moving anywhere. I believe sum will think that I make this decision because of certain people,but I can truly clarify something, though Li Ping is my spiritual buddy, but when it comes to my spiritual life, I treat it more seriously than compared to anything else.

I will never make any decision to do with my spiritual life because of anyone. I believe alot would like to know what causes me to make such decision, it's very simple. I have seriously reflected on my growth, I am not moving anywhere but stumbling from Christ. I have really tried to bring myself into the circle, but I failed very badly. Perhaps moving to another new environment will bring myself better and closer to Christ.

Leaving the circle, I dun bear to leave too but I dun wish to continue to be in a group which I am not growing but falling...

As for personal life, at least till this moment, I feel blessed and loved. Leaving very soon on 14th and yet, I still have so much stuff not settled yet. School, having attachments, family, having lots of stupid matters to handle. And will need to monitor my Mum's mental health too, quite worrying but I believe everything will still in place.

Decisions, made a few major ones recently but I believe, I will not regret any of each.

I know my stand very clearly, other than God, no one else would I follow for the rest of my life. Relationship, I believe quite a few had been quite concernedwith it, but I have my own stand. What I can't deny, I am in love and I know what I am doing. I have a clear mind of what is going on, maybe it seems too early for me to enter relationship, but I won't let this relationship to affect my life, my academic or my spiritual life.

In fact, though it's hard on this person to accept my extreme active social life and tight schedule, this person has been supporting, encouraging and helping me in alot of areas. Even when I dun feel like moving on with my stuff, this person has been one pushing me through. Though we quarrel here and there, we know each other for 12 years and I believe the bonding will not be affected by such.

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Life is about making right decisions...

Making the right decisions, perhaps is really a hard move of life. All these while, I thought I am capable of taking charge of my life, without seeking advice, but God has faithfully showed me that I have been too arrogant.

I spoke to an sister recently and realize, hey, leading the right kind of life in God's eye. Am now facing an ultimate decision which is going to affect perhaps my life after 3 months. Will be flying off to Seoul after 3 months, I have never been afraid to travel but this is the very first time and I believe God will overcome this fear for me.

This race with Christ has been full of ups and downs. Am really glad that my Mum is slowly opening up to Christ and am even asking me questions about Jesus. And my twins sister is finally agreeing to come to visit and attend service, but still need to arrange up an time with her. I really hope to witness salvation within my family upon my lifetime, this has been a very silly yet possible dream.

As for my mistakes all along, perhaps it's hard to admit but I believe it's time to make an end. As for my relationship with Peok Wan Ting, please stop asking me, because seriously, there's nothing more to say. It was a mistake, because there wasn't love at all, all it was within the relationship was just simply desires and insecurity.

Nevertheless, without her presence in my life, I would not be where I am, therefore, I am really very thankful for her but please, it's over. I have found my happiness and strength,and the courage to move on with life. I won't allow anything or anyone to stumble me, and all I ever want right now is just to focus on my life peacefully.

Linfred, an name which I hold in Union Band, means gentle peace. Gentleness, something which I am trying to cultivate but so far, suppose is still quite far from achievement. Peace, something which I realize is the most important factor lacking in my life right now.