It's a tough decision, definitely, but I wun change my mind...

Not long ago, I have finally decided on something which I believe have really troubled me for a very long tym. And I know that this decision has affect the people around me somehow too, I have done my best but all these, I know that I am right because I have no reason to submit myself to please people but to please God.

I have decided to leave the current circle which I am serving in, reason being, I realized I am not moving anywhere. I believe sum will think that I make this decision because of certain people,but I can truly clarify something, though Li Ping is my spiritual buddy, but when it comes to my spiritual life, I treat it more seriously than compared to anything else.

I will never make any decision to do with my spiritual life because of anyone. I believe alot would like to know what causes me to make such decision, it's very simple. I have seriously reflected on my growth, I am not moving anywhere but stumbling from Christ. I have really tried to bring myself into the circle, but I failed very badly. Perhaps moving to another new environment will bring myself better and closer to Christ.

Leaving the circle, I dun bear to leave too but I dun wish to continue to be in a group which I am not growing but falling...

As for personal life, at least till this moment, I feel blessed and loved. Leaving very soon on 14th and yet, I still have so much stuff not settled yet. School, having attachments, family, having lots of stupid matters to handle. And will need to monitor my Mum's mental health too, quite worrying but I believe everything will still in place.

Decisions, made a few major ones recently but I believe, I will not regret any of each.

I know my stand very clearly, other than God, no one else would I follow for the rest of my life. Relationship, I believe quite a few had been quite concernedwith it, but I have my own stand. What I can't deny, I am in love and I know what I am doing. I have a clear mind of what is going on, maybe it seems too early for me to enter relationship, but I won't let this relationship to affect my life, my academic or my spiritual life.

In fact, though it's hard on this person to accept my extreme active social life and tight schedule, this person has been supporting, encouraging and helping me in alot of areas. Even when I dun feel like moving on with my stuff, this person has been one pushing me through. Though we quarrel here and there, we know each other for 12 years and I believe the bonding will not be affected by such.